"But I have to keep on going my own way. If I don't do anything, if I don't study, if I don't search - then I am lost. Then God help me!" - Vincent Van GoghIn preparation for the Following the Masters Challenge, I have been doing some research on Vincent Van Gogh. I came across the above quote and identified so very strongly with it that I had to share it. I am a true student, school, life, art...It keeps me getting up each and every day. My mom told me that when I was a little girl I drove her nuts asking questions. As an adult, even as late as in my early 40's, I have been told at jobs that I "ask too many questions." I have to know, I have to understand at the most basic levels and then build from there. The hardest lesson I had to learn - ever - was in taking algebra. As much as I needed to know WHY something was done in a certain way, it wasn't until I accepted that it just IS, was I able to understand it and do well in it.
At any rate, back to Van Gogh. I've never been a big fan of his art work. Did you know he was only 37 when he passed away? One of his friends, Rappard, once told Van Gogh, "You'll no doubt agree with me that such a piece of work is not to be taken seriously. Thank goodness you are capable of more than this." The piece he was criticizing was called "Potato Eaters," and oddly enough one of my own favorites of Van Gogh's works.

Van Gogh handled charcoal, pen and ink masterfully! Some of his earliest drawings are just superb to my mind. Then I see the paintings and I see work as poor as my own, by and large. Of course, this is all in the eye of the beholder. (Apparently, Van Gogh's paintings were not acclaimed until after his death!)

Imagine my shock to see that Van Gogh practiced different styles to his work. One piece that he mentions giving him trouble was The Loom. The equipment itself caused him grief. I see a combination of past style and future style leaning towards a bit of Impressionism with the wall behind the man operating the loom.
In this painting of Montmartre, I see the crooked street lights and I wonder...

Of course, I do not consider myself even close to the talents of Van Gogh. That said, I wonder if that is just because he is famous for his art work. When looking at the catalog of his works and see some of the pieces, I get the feeling that he spent quite a bit of time simply splashing paint around to see what would happen. In other words, there isn't necessarily a lot of serious painting going on at times. Maybe frustration, maybe a form of expressing his emotions, maybe even simple practice and a playing with of styles. He plays with impressionism, with pointillism (sorry if I've butchered the spelling of that one). I'm not sure I even know what pointillism is, but I intend to check it out. I read in this book that it has to do with dots of paint, which is exactly what I thought it was, but I will still look up the methods. Curiosity sake and all of that.
Another of my favorite pieces done by Van Gogh is called Peasant Man and Woman Planting Potatoes. Not sure why this piece moves me, but it does indeed.

Throw in some of Van Gogh's portraits and I am once again put off of his work. There is something off, not quite right (as in my own self-portrait). For instance, Woman at a Table in the "Cafe du Tambourin." Look how skewed both eyes and eyebrows are. The hairstyle? I thought she might be wearing a hat but the book calls it a hairstyle...

Then there is the Portrait of Pere Tanguy; note again the placement of the eyes. Just something off, methinks. Way too wideset.

Van Gogh's own self-portrait I also find a bit disturbing, somehow.

Yet his Fisherman with a Sou'wester just is amazingly wonderful.

Ultimately, Van Gogh painted and drew with various styles, some of which I like, some which I really find off-putting. I suppose that is the way of art though, isn't it? I find that it really disturbs me to read of the art connoiseurs and their in-depth interpretations and analyzations of any art work. I think quite often they attach symbolism and meaning to pieces that were never the intent of the artist. Not to say that an artist doesn't play with his work or his viewers because I am certain that they do. But to have a painting imbued with meaning that more than likely wasn't there to begin with, at least not by intent, just bugs me. For me art has to speak to me, move me in some way. It plays to my emotions, not my analytical thinking processes. I follow many artist's blogs (a new passion that came about over the past few months) and I see works quite a bit more exquisite than Van Gogh's pieces. Others as wonky in their way as I find some of Van Gogh's works. I find them all interesting and beautifully, even those somewhat skewed visions (except my own, alas). I find them interesting because they are seen with a different eye than my own, executed by a hand that connects head to fingers different than most others. I learn and grow, watch and listen and enjoy. I've been self teaching art history (and I do so have a love for the Renaissance pieces) and am finding works that I love across all historical art periods. I am beginning my own small collection of art works from art that speaks to me, personally, whether through artist friend's blogs, through eBay, and even my own piling up stash of completed pieces. Mine will undoubtedly never see the light of day as they are stashed in a 33 gal. black plastic trash bag. But they are mine and I love them because I did them and I've come to see the charm in them all. Eventually it happens for me. Not great masterpieces, mind you, but charming nonetheless. I've come to find that I prefer the blogs I follow to even art fairs. There is something machine like about art fairs...unless I can make that emotional connection with a piece or an artist, I just find that I do not enjoy it as much. And that is that...my convoluted take on art.
So what have I learned? A few new words to look up, including impressionism (not a new word, but still want to look it up), pointillism (again not a new word but one I want to understand), pastoso (?); and ultimately? I LOVE LOVE LOVE Van Gogh. I see the growth, the experimentation, the not always facile use of paint and brush, the reaching, trying, and love of art. He worked in various mediums (The State Lottery Office painting is a watercolor!) I think he and I would have got on quite well. I also love his red hair and somewhat ascetic looks! I leave you with another of one of my favorite Van Gogh paintings: The State Lottery Office.